It’s scary to find someone that makes you happy. You start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that’s going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but it’s scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go.
Haven’t done any shoots for about a month now I think. Needed time to recover from the car accident. But then I got insecure about the scratch on my forehead. Cause ya know, image is huge if you model… hah.
No, for real, it’s my face tho. I’m not only recovering, being insecure, but also dealing with the whole situation with insurance and medical bills, finding a car and what nots.. Just. so. damn. annoying. stressful.
On top of that, finals are coming up sooon. TOO SOON. But the thing that makes me happy and stress free is modeling. And I haven’t been doing any shoots lately which pulls me down. Blah. What a random weird post. I just needed to get it out I guess. I feel liked I fucked up big time after the accident. I kinda hate myself if you honestly ask me how I feel. But, but, but I just push aside that hatred about myself and push that it will get better. Trying to move on from it. But makes me so angry.
I’m literally in love with Nash