After living here for about 2 years, I realized how much I miss my friends. Well, my best friends to be exact. I tried being friends and making new friends here, but it doesn’t feel the same. Maybe I’m searching too hard for something that I already have which I cannot replace. Honestly, I cannot connect with these friends like the way I connect with my best friends. I want a meaningful friendship; a deep type of friendship.
Granted, it’s fun going to parties and drinking with these handful of friends I have here; but I cannot connect with them on another level. Within these past 2 years of living here, I already lost a bunch of friends due to the lack of communication. Maybe they simply find me boring. I don’t know if it’s me, or them. I don’t know. Although, it really does make me appreciate my best friends even more. Yup, I came to a conclusion; my best friends seriously cannot be replaced. It’s not like I was trying to replace them, but it would be nice to have something as meaningful as what I have with them. Does that make sense? errrr. Anyways, they’re the most awesome people I ever met in my life. Love you guys so much.
They’re worth it. Instead of liking someone for their looks, you actually get to know them first. I think having webcam dates and falling asleep on skype is really cute. You have to trust in your partner, which a lot of relationships lack. But, the only thing I hate about long distant relationships is not being able to physically be there for the other person, not being able to hold them.
YASSSS it is. Been through it, but makes the both of you so much stronger as a TEAM.
Everyday is a damn struggle. Sometimes I feel like I have such a humungous weight over my shoulders that drags me down. Dealing with old landlord, going to court soon, dealing with current landlord, and my boss. I try not to let it get the best of me, but it pushes me so hard. It’s slowly choking me, it’s getting hard to breathe months by months. Agggggggh. Honestly, this year is fucken shit to me. I hate 2014 so much. It’s beating me down every month and leaving bruises all over. I pray and hope it gets better. I try to maintain hope… I really do try. I don’t think people know my struggles beneath my smiles. sigh. Anyways, done ranting and venting. Fuck people too. They can go suck my right enormous nut. HA.